Urrrrrrgh... My eyes hurt from phone glare! I rarely get a full nights sleep. I don't even know why I'm awake! There was no loud noise, Scarlett is sound asleep, no snoring from Bern, (although I did wake with his leg on my stomach?!) no noisy weather, no burglars, no cats having crazy time and no mad dreams. So why am I awake! Did I go to bed too early? Is 10pm too early?? Honestly if I blogged every time I woke during sleep there would be enough text to create a novel.
Bern has just rolled over and I'm now left with a few inches of bed space and some nice heavy breathing in my right ear. How very irritating! I can hear Scarlett shuffling around on the baby monitor now too. Too many distractions. The annoying song stuck on repeat in my head is Diamonds by Rihanna. I HATE that song and I really don't think much of her either. Such a bad role model for young girls. Never thought I'd hear myself say that before. Being a mother has changed me!
Bern's just elbowed me in the arm rolling back over, how dare he!
Did my Mam say she was coming tomorrow (or today even considering its currently 3.09am) to give me something for Scarlett? I've forgot what time she said, I have to take Rolo to the dog groomers tomorrow, I can't remember what time it was at though. Was it 2pm or 2.30pm?
Did I put the paintbrush in the white spirit? I can't remember that either. Its covered in gloss and i need it to continue the can of worms I've now opened by starting the glossing in the first place! I can't be bothered to go downstairs to look. I'm loosing my memory, I must be getting old.
Speaking of which, I'm 25 this year you know. Twenty five, quarter of a century. Why?! I don't want to be 25. I want to stay 24 forever! To be honest if I told people I was 18 they'd probably believe me, I really do look like I still belong in secondary school. But mentally I will always know, I'm really almost 25. Why does age matter? Because it means you get OLD. I don't wanna get old! I don't wanna get crows feet and grey hair, or have to wear clothes to suit my age. And if I get old, that's means Scarlett will grow up too. I wish she could stay the age she is now forever. She's so oblivious and innocent. I don't want her to learn about certain things and I don't want her to experience what our sometimes cruel world has to offer. I don't want her to have her heart broken and I don't want her to go through the trials and tribulations life's path has waiting. I wish I could just preserve her sweet little self as she is now and keep her that way.
Oh my God, in five years time I'm going to be thirty...
Arrrrrgh I can't sleep!
Ni
Xxx
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